Check out my shirt

So now I can explain why I haven't written much in the last two weeks. There has been a lot on my mind. I wanted so bad to write but I knew I would tell and well I didn't want to until I confirmed everything today. So here goes...

Today was a big day. Emily turned 2 and she also found out she was going to be a BIG SISTER. I had already told her but told her I wasn't sure yet. I went to the doctor today and confirmed that I am pregnant. After 6 home test you would think I was sure but I wanted to hear it from the expert. It just so happened that the day of my appointment was the day of Emily's 2nd birthday. So on her 2nd birthday we found out that Baby #2 was cooking in the oven...so to speak! It was confirmed today I am 5 weeks pregnant and my due date is March 31st...would die if he or she is born on April 1st! That would just not be right after me second guessing myself all the time.

It is amazing how fast I got pregnant this time around which makes me really scared and still unsure about it all. I know I want another baby...this is the last one...I know my body is changing...I know I have been sick some...My clothes already aren't fitting right (I know big already..what?) but is it all real? I actually woke up a few nights ago to go to the bathroom (of course) and I thought all those 6 test I took was something I did in my dreams...really in my dreams, but it was real! I am so excited!

I have so much to do! If you know me, I don't wait til the last minute to do anything so I have had everything planned out before Emily even made it into the world. So I know what I have to do for the 2nd child, just got to start doing it. Of course my husband is the man that didn't put the car seat in the car for Emily until the day we headed home from the hospital, so I have to put fire under him which takes a lot of fuel on my end! I just can't wait to get started.

I keep wondering why me. Why did God bless me so many times. I feel like I haven't done enough to deserve all his glory. I mean; I met Andrew and we got married...blessing #1, then I realized what wonderful parents I had (I never knew until I got married, what a shame)...blessing #2, then came Emily...#3, then I got to stay at home with Emily..blessing #4, then now I am pregnant...blessing #5. Let us not forget about all the little ones in between nor my health or the health of my loved ones. What did I do to deserve all of this? DO you ever wonder that? I know we should just accept it and not ask questions but I really haven't been the best person in the world but he still is giving me so much. What a wonderful God.

Thank you God!

Two already?

Tomorrow Emily will be TWO. I can't believe it. Today we had a little party for her. She had so much fun and got so many great gifts. She was so overwhelmed when we got home she actually got in the cooler full of icy cold water and drinks. Go figure. All the new toys and she decided to jump in the cooler in the kitchen. Crazy child! It didn't take her long to come put those cold feet on me. UGH!Here are a few party pictures. I will post some more tomorrow on her actual birthday. I decided to just have my parents and the in-laws over tomorrow. Two days of gifts though...what a lucky child! If only she knew now to enjoy this Birthday thing because the older you get the less it is acknowledged! Oh if only they knew now what we already know as adults.

We're back

We are back from the Beach. It was so much fun. It amazes me how each year is different but now with Emily each year is really different. She looked at the pool in a new way, the arcade, the ocean, but not the sand. She still doesn't like playing in the sand like other kids do. She doesn't like to get it on her. She still loves the golf cart, what kid doesn't. She had so much fun. What was so sweet though was the last night. I had been busy every night selling jewelry...I did very well by the way. But at night I didn't get to really be with Emily because I was "working" the only one working on our vacation! So I devoted the last night to Emily and Andrew. We road the golf cart and watched fireworks. She would just pull me to her and kiss me.. it was like she was saying, mom this is wonderful, I have missed. She would pull Andrew toward her with one arm and use the other arm to pull me to her and then kiss us both. It is times like that your heart just melts and you thank God over and over. It was a wonderful night. Andrew and I walked on the beach with Emily, for the first time that week, and Emily and I found a really big shell. It was great. Thank God for vacations, family, our children, and our memories.


We also went fishing in the Inlet. My dad, Andrew and I. Not to brag but I caught the biggest fish and the most. I was so scared at first. I kept thinking of all the sharks in the water and I could see the jelly fish floating around. But once I caught the first fish, a really big one, there wasn't much you could do to stop me. Russell was our Captain. He was young and really nice to me. He always took the fish off for us and put the bait on. He gave my dad and Andrew a hard time because I was catching everything. I kept catching sting rays too. They are really weird looking up close and they put up some kind of fight when you catch them. What was the most fascinating thing to me was the big Red fish I caught. It was actually the first fish I caught and the first one for the day and the biggest. The thing about these fish that is so off the wall is they change sexes during their life. They are born males and then turn into women. Funny ugh? They don't even have to have surgery for it. The one I caught was 24 inches long and in order to keep them it has to be 23 inches so we had to throw it back. I don't know why we couldn't have just cut the tail off a little...LOL We got a good picture though! Russell is holding the fish for me. Do you know that most all fish in the ocean big or small have teeth? Razor sharp teeth too. I wasn't about to hold it!

Many memories were made this past week but another big event is about to happen. My little girl will be 2 in one week. So this trip was her big trip before her birthday. She is my everything. She was my baby but now she is my little girl!

Baby Teeth

Emily amazes me daily but yesterday was so funny, I am still laughing about it. I bought her this baby that grows teeth. If you have a kid you probably have seen them. They come with a bottle and pacifier and teething ring. I should have saved it for her birthday which is in 2 weeks but who could wait, right? I too wanted to see it work!

She loved it, of course. When you put the pacifier in the baby's mouth it starts to cry (because it is teething) and when you take it out, up pops two bottom teeth! Being the parent you can make the teeth go back in with a button on the back of the doll...which of course only the adults know about and can get to. Emily didn't say anything about the baby's teeth, I was sure she saw them but she didn't make a big deal about it like I thought she would. She just kept feeding the baby and soothing it. When the baby would cry Emily would give it the bottle or teething ring and rock it back and forth.. (like I do her) It was so sweet.

I was interested to see what she would do when the teeth actually disappeared. So I played a little joke on her! Wonderful mom I know! Hopefully you can picture this. The teeth were up, and Emily was holding the baby and rocking it by moving her body back and forth. She put the bottle in and as soon as she took it out....I pushed the magic button and POOF went the teeth. With a quick reaction she pulled the doll back from her looked at it and looked at me and said, "momma teeth, teeth"! Her eyes were as big as lemons and when she wasn't asking where the teeth were, her jaw was resting on her feet. I laughed so hard. She kept putting her hand in the air like she was saying I don't know what just happened and well she didn't!

Poor thing! She knows her teeth don't come and go, why did the baby's and how? I laughed so hard. It's times like this I am grateful I am at home with her. I see her grow every day in a new way. It is a hard job, staying at home, with no paycheck but you can't get back the memories.

My Best Friend

I use to love to write poems but I haven't in many years. Tonight as I laid in bed this one came to me. I am so lucky for all I have. It amazes me how everything that happens to us during our life really does have a meaning. You learn from it and grow from it. No matter how hard some times are, I know they have to happen, I know someone is behind it all. It is so hard to admit at the time but when you look back...you see the complete picture.

I am so thankful for my husband. I give him such a hard time but he is my best friend. He puts up with a lot, if you know me, you know that. But I couldn't make it without him. He truely is a great man. My man...my baby's daddy!

For all those who broke my heart

I am grateful we grew apart

All the tears I use to cry

To all that pain I say goodbye

You taught me how to love and how to hate

You taught me what to give and what to take

I'm glad you were in my life

Thanks to you I am a mother and a wife

I have the best man by my side

It is with him I will one day die

If my heart would not have been broken

there is no telling where I would be

So as I thank you tonight

I know you are out there somewhere thanking me!

Thank you

GOING TO THE BEACH

So I have been really slack lately but we are going to the beach...I have been packing. I will write when we get back. I can't wait.

Emily and I

I love my girl!

The Bird House

Today Emily painted a bird house. Emily's dad made a bird house out of Popsicle sticks, I tried but I won't show you those pictures.

A few days ago I painted the bird house white to get it ready for Emily to paint. I thought it would be a great way for us to work on our colors and have fun at the same time.

If you know my daughter, she doesn't like to get dirty so at first she was really careful but then after I put paint on me and showed her how it came off, she was okay with getting it on her. She actually made a mess.

She is so proud of her Bird House. She didn't like to paint the sides just the top she picked the colors she wanted and used all the brushes. She liked holding the small ones but I think she soon realized the big ones do better.

We are waiting on the bird house to dry and then we will take a photo of it hanging on the front porch. I told her we would put it there. Right now it is on the front steps. She keeps going to check on it. She is growing up so fast!

I wonder what is going on in her little head. There is so much to learn every day, so much to do. How does she do it? She amazes me everyday.